Back Home to Pine Cove

I've been going to Pine Cove literally since I can remember. There's a picture hanging up in our house of my mom holding me with my sister on the other side at the Mother/Daughter conference in probably 1995. I absolutely love that place. No matter if it's youth camp or the conference centers. Probably the reason it feels most like home is because how the Lord has molded me and transformed my life there.

At the Pine Cove Shores in high school as I was going into my Junior Year, it was the first time I realized how important a daily quiet time was. That molded the quiet times that I continue to have now even as I type this.

Living my dream as a Pine Cove counselor in the inaugural year of the Timbers, the Lord started me on a lifelong journey to contentment with him. Specifically,the Lord, through my terrible acne that summer, showed me that contentment was not through the way I looked. He showed me that I was beautiful not because of the way I looked or dressed, but because I was His and He made me.That was the first time I ever yearned and longed for the Lord. I remember just flipping through my Bible and just never wanting to stop reading. I realized that not only did I want the Lord, but I truly need the Lord every single day of my life.

So, this last weekend was truly coming full circle for me at Pine Cove. I had been a kid at conferences, been a kid at youth camps, been a counselor at youth camps, and now I am being an adult (I saw adult in the loosest term. I may have been at an adult women's conference, but I sure did still swing on the swings and do cheers!) at conferences. This weekend the Lord truly just brought me back to himself. I have been a while in a state of just kind of stagnation in my walk with the Lord, which I know means I was growing apart from Him. I just needed this time at PC to one again realize just how sweet my time with Jesus is. Also, I learned a lot about courage not only in typical firefighter type situations, but within daily life.

More on this tomorrow! As for now, one of my goals after this weekend is to be more disciplined with my bedtime, so good night!

Lord, may you continue to bring me to yourself. Thank you for Pine Cove and the way you use it to bring me to your feet.

Transition

So, here I am 3 months in to my 'adult' life, and I am feeling a bit (or let's be honest, A LOT) directionless. For my whole life, I always was working towards goals. When I was in elementary school, I wanted to get the most laps in running club, make it on to student council, and be the best GT student. In middle school, I wanted to make the sports teams, get invited to the cool kid parties, and make it on Park Pride. In high school, I wanted to go to state in Tennis, win fair queen, and be valedictorian. In college, I wanted to be head RA, become large group coordinator of GCF, and excel in math. You get the point. I've always had goals. But, now I feel a little stuck. I guess I always figured at this point in my life I would 'on track' to getting married. Well, clearly that's not the case and now I'm kind of stuck where do I go from here.

I'm not going to lie. This transition is HARD. I know this is where I need to be right now, but that doesn't make me miss W&L any less. I miss my friends. I miss GCF. I miss Young Life. I miss ResLife. I even miss the way I was with the Lord there. You see in this transition, I've felt numb to the Lord. I guess I am so success driven that that is a way I have drawn close to the Lord. I seek his help, guidance, and just talk to him more when I'm trying to achieve a goal.

Don't get me wrong. Life in Houston is not bad. In fact, I do really like it. I've joined an awesome church with an even more awesome singles Sunday School class. I play sports with them. I have a small group. We go to social events together. I've met a lot of people. I am very thankful for that and I know that the Lord is going to/has been using these people to help me during this transition.

Now, I just pray that I get that desire for the Lord back. In my head, I know it's not the place or the group of people that draw me to the Lord, but in my heart, it's still hard for me to believe. I guess what I'm saying is that it was easy to draw close to the Lord there. It was comfortable. But, oh wait. The Lord doesn't call us to live comfortable lives. Dang it.

Lord, give me love for you. Let me yearn for you, Lord. Guide me through this transition and bring me joy that only comes from you.

Spring Term=Spring o' Fun

Great, great day today! Got offered not one, but two jobs that would be great for me!! Noon today I was jobless. By 2 PM, I had two job offers! Praise the Lord! Now starts the difficult decision making process. Beyond all of that awesomeness, it is now officially spring term, which means spring option for me which means lots of times to do fun things! Here are just a few of the things I want to do this spring term.

1.) Clean/Organize the GCF Carrel
2.) Write at least 3 letters/week
3.) Run 4 Days a Week
4.) Ab work at least 3 days a week
5.) Safari Park
6.) Natural Bridge
7.) Tube the Maury
8.) Have a legit quiet time daily with at least 3 days a week having them outside or fun places
9.) Apply for a Credit Card
10.) Upgrade my phone
11.) Find housing wherever I choose to live
12.) Sign up for my frequent fliers points
13.) Bake/Cook at least once a week!
14.) Finish Reading Decision Points and Redeeming Love
15.) Hike House Mountain

Well, that's all I can think of for now, but I'll keep it updated if I add or check off any of these!
The Lord is good. Amen

pray, pray, pray

that's what i've been doing and need to do. i've got a lot on my mind. i'm giving it to the Lord.' Lord, i pray for discernment. i pray for your will. i pray for a clear answer. i pray that you lead me the right way.

Playing the Waiting Game

The Waiting Game. It's the hardest game I've ever had to play. Besides maybe heads up, 7-Up. I was really terrible at that game except when I cheated and looked at the people's feet (let's be real we all cheated at some point in that game). Anyone want to play soon? On my honor, I won't cheat this time! So, the waiting game, here's what God has to say about it.. "But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently." Romans 8:25 Patient? Wait, you want me to be patient? But, Lord, I NEEEEEEED to know where I'm gonna be next year and what I'll be doing. So much relies on it. But, thankfully, I serve a good God who has a beautiful plan for me. (yes, plan.. i'm so excited about it because we all know I love plans!) I do not know it yet, but here I am waiting patiently (sometimes). Even though, I am still very impatient, I have such a peace about where I'll be and what I'll be doing next year. I KNOW my father has an awesome plan for me even if that means moving home for a little bit. I trust in His goodness and the fact that He knows me better than I know myself. I don't like waiting, but I will wait because I know the waiting brings me closer to my father. It lets me seek Him and talk to Him A LOT. Lord, let me seek you in this time of waiting. Thanks so much for the beautiful plan you have for my life.

Trusting in the Lord

The Lord has been teaching me so much lately. A lot about what it means to trust Him fully instead of questioning if what He has for me is really good. It's not easy for sure. Surprise, surprise. I tend to want to grip on to things and keep control of them. Well, I've been getting wakeup calls about that lately. Specifically, today I got a rejection letter for a job I really wanted. In fact, I was really confident that I would get it because of my qualifications and how well the interview went. The Lord took my control of my future and jerked it out of my hands. I thought that was my future. Clearly, the Lord has a different future for me. Joan and I talked last night about asking the Lord to shut all the doors except the one He wanted us to go through, so there would be no question that we were doing the Lord's will. Little did I know how quickly would that be true for my life. I can tell how much the Lord has worked in my life in the past year because of my reaction to the rejection. Clearly, I was disappointed, but my first reaction was that God had His perfect plan. There were no water works. It was simply on to the next trying to figure out what God has for me.

found this verse and it is so perfect in my circumstance:
Those who know your name trust in you, for you, Lord, have never forsaken those that trust you. Psalm 9:10

Lord, take my future from any grasp I try to hold onto. You know where you want me. Put me there.

Approval

I'm learning a LOT from the Lord right now. I'm learning so much about myself and the Lord is peeling off a veil for me to see sin in my life that I have never seen before. It is HARD. so HARD. I hate seeing sin in my own life. Remember how I hate not being perfect? See if I'm sinning, I'm not perfect, which sucks.

I've learned in the past couple of months that my love language is affirmation. I feel really loved when I feel really affirmed. It's definitely good to know what your love language is, but this past week I have seen the flip side to this. I realized that my love language is affirmation, so I do most things in my life in an effort to be affirmed by other people aka I want approval from people. I work soo hard for approval in sports, academics, jobs, whatever it is. I realized that the reason I'm struggling with not feeling like a good Young Life leader is that I'm not being affirmed. The Lord is teaching me through that the I need not work for approval of man, but approval of Him. ahhh.. that's so hard.

Even tonight, I realized another aspect of my struggle with approval. I even seek for approval on how I look and how I interact with people. Going out is definitely not comfortable to me especially when I'm not going out with one of my good friends. I realized that because of this I searched for approval even more, to no avail. I just felt awkward. Then, after leaving the going out situation I came back to hang out with another friend, who was actually already hanging out with someone else, so i couldn't hang out with her. The right thing to do is so hard a lot of times. I learned that tonight. Usually, the "right" thing to do is just automatic for me, but it wasn't tonight. I wanted to go hang out to feel affirmed that I was loved, but I knew that that was not what the two other people wanted/needed. It's hard sitting her alone, but I know that that is what is best even though it's not what my flesh wants.

"Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings, or of God? Or am I trying to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ."
Galatians 1:10

Lord, let me be your servant. Let me work for your approval and not man's.

Sister Weekend :)

In New York City for Sister Weekend!
I'm so pumped to get to spend 4 days with my seester. She is the best and it is easiest for me to be honest with her than anyone else. She does such a great job of loving me. I know pretty much noone else that loves me as well as the way she does. I guess it's because I was such a present to her after having 2 brothers :)

Isaiah 33 is sooo good.
Summary: What the Lord is
My take:
v. 2-"O Lord, be gracious to us; We have waited for You. Be their arm every morning, Our salvation also in the time of trouble." I love this because it's a beautiful cry out to the Lord. The Lord wants us to call out to him in our distress and that's exactly what this is.
v. 5d-"The fear of the Lord is His treasure." Not exactly sure what this means, but I feel like it's really powerful. I take it to mean fearing the Lord is such a treasure to Christ.
v.15d-16a-"And shuts his eyes from evil: He will dwell on high." This makes me think about all the trash TV I watch. I need to be really careful about what I'm putting into my brain through my eyes. So much evil can come into our lives and produce sin through what we see. Our eyes are direct road for Satan to creep into our lives, so we need to make sure we guard them. My guilty pleasure is trashy reality TV shows, so clearly I'm not very good at this. There's definitely a fine line to walk about what is okay and not, and I'm not sure I'm walking it very well.
v.22- "For the Lord is our Judge, The Lord is our Lawgiver, The Lord is our King; He will save us." This is so powerful about the identity of the Lord. Such a great reminder, too for me that humans are not my judge. So, why am I striving to be perfect in their eyes?? He is King, not us! He will save us!!

Complacent

It's cool how the Lord so many times gives you just what you need to hear through His word. Isaiah 32 was just what I needed tonight. It talks about how righteous God is and how peaceful being His is, but what hit me most was what it said about complacency. You see, it's gotten really easy for me to be complacent as a senior. I know my surroundings. I know the people. I know my classes. I like where I'm at. I have to make sure I walk the fine line between complacency and contentment. While yes, I absolutely want to be content in the Lord (phil. 4:11.. check it out, in my top 5 favorite verses), I never want to be complacent. I guess the difference in the way I see it is that contentment is being content in your identity in Christ, knowing that you are His, wheras complacency is feeling like you don't need to grow in the Lord. Confession: I a lot of times feel like I'm a great Christian and don't have that much growing to do in the Lord. Clearly, I know that's a lie because I'm far from perfect, but it's so easy to get in that mind set through comparison with those around you. When I'm around the normal student, I'm feeling pretty good about my walk with the Lord. But, when I was around my fellow counselors the last couple of summers, I felt like I had leaps and bounds to go in the Lord. Again, it's a fine line between contentment and complacency.
Lord, let me learn to never be complacent. Let me constantly yearn to grow closer to you. Thank you for the way you have solidly given me my identity in you.

Trust, Where's Yours?

Isaiah 31:
Summary: It's stupid not to trust in God
My take: After hearing the Young Life club talk tonight about the woman at the well that challenged kids and myself to figure out what kind of "water" are we seeking to fulfill our lives and reading this passage, I realize that as much as I want to say I trust in God and He is what I seek to fulfill my life, it is not true. I seek out success. I want to be successful so badly that when success doesn't come my way (as in the politics test I got back today that I thought I had gotten an A on and actually got a B), I am dry and thirst for success in some other way to fill my cup. I KNOW that the Lord has got me in His hands and His plan is best, but it's sooo hard to believe that in the moment when I fail at something. You see this has worked for me so well for much of my life. I would consider myself a highly successful person. This is one of the big things that worries me about becoming an adult, though. I feel like there's last chance of measurable success. I can't be president of 3 organizations, be recognized for my grades, and get a leadership award at my job. I know. I know. Success will come in different ways, but I like measurable ways. Not immeasurable ways.

Lord, let me find my trust in you and not success. It's hard, Lord, but I know you are worth it.

Faithful

After writing that entry last night, I had an awesome 2 1/2 hour chat with my mom. We talked about a lot of things, but we kept coming back to two things. God is faithful and it's really important to be honest with fellow believers.

So, here's some honesty for you:

Growing up, my dad never had a steady job. He'd hop from one job to the next and many times just not have a job at all. I remember many times being literally angry with my dad. One particular time, I even went on a screaming tyrade at him because I was so angry. As a girl, I have a desire to be taken care of and protected and that just isn't him. My brother asked him last week about it, and he said he literally has never had any motivation to provide for his family. He just does not possess that natural male instinct to want to provide and protect his family. This is SO hard for me. I still have the urge to go yell at him about this sometimes. I have been so hurt by it so many times. I have finally realized, though, that it is something that I need to completely give to the Lord and pray that the Lord helps me forgive him because deep down I know I haven't. I still hold on to that hurt. All of this is so hard for me to even write because I HATE admitting that me or my family is not perfect. Most people in our town think we are the perfect family and nothing is wrong. Noone would ever believe that I have been hurt by my dad ever. We are the Spencers, who live in the perfect white 2 story house, have the 4 perfect kids who all were valedictorian or salutatorian and have grown up to be successful, and go to church every Sunday. I probably lie about my family more than anything else. I guess I just want us to be perfect so much that I lie to make us out to be. I am really good at putting on a perfect FACADE. I do it because it still kills me that me and my family are not perfect. Again, something I'm constantly having to give to the Lord.



So, that being said, my mom and I talked about that being honest with fellow believers is so important because we are meant to walk through the good and bad of life together! She was in her Bible study group last week when one lady admitted that she barely made it to Bible study because she is so depressed. That apparently opened up many of the ladies in the group to confess that they, too, are going through are have been through depression including my mom. My mom was stunned because I guess as we Christians, we just look at other people in our churches, and just expect them to have everything together. That's how we act. Christians are sooo good at putting on the pretty face. Especially as women, we think we have to hold our families together and we're deceived into believing that if something is not going right, we're failing as a Christian or mother. The true fact is NONE of us do have it all together! Once we admit that, it will make life so much better because now instead of carrying burdens on our own, we can share them with our fellow believers and walk through them together! We are never alone because Christ is with us, but also, we are never alone because chances are, there is another believer who's gone through or going through the same thing as you!



I struggle with being honest daily if not hourly if not minutely (is that a word??). I don't want people to know my struggles because then, they wouldn't see me as perfect. But, I need to first be honest with myself. Is this act I'm putting on bringing glory to God? And if I'm honest, it's absolutely not. Who knows who I could help or who could help me if they only knew what I was struggling with? Walking side by side as Christians is what we were made for. I know how sweet it is. Now, I just need to do it.



So, now that I've been honest, the faithful part comes in. As my mom and I talked about the whole situation with my dad and her bible study group, we also talked about how God has been and will be faithful through it all. With my dad, God has been faithful to our family by always providing what we needed and even given dad a steady job the last 9 years. He has been faithful to use my dad's situation to make my mom and I cling to Him. He has been faithful by providing us with a strong family unit. With her bible study group, He has been faithful by providing honest women that truly care for each other. For me, looking back on ways the Lord has been faithful is the best reminder that He will still be faithful even through the hard things I am going through right now.



So, since we're speaking in honesty, here's where I struggle:

I struggle with the fact that my brothers don't get along and that hurts me so much.

I struggle with my brother not following the Lord.

I struggle with lying.

I struggle with pride.

I struggle with feeling like I'm not a good Young Life leader.

I struggle with resentment against my Dad.

I struggle with not believing that the Lord could ever bring me the kind of Godly man I want to marry.



So, Lord I give you my struggles. Give me an honest heart and an honest tongue, Lord. Thanks for the chat with mom last night.

P.S. In awesome news, I ran 2 miles in 16:18 tonight!! That's the fastest I've run it since summer prior to freshmen year! I'm definitely getting the running bug and loving it!

Backsliding

So, remember last week when I told you to expect longer updates this week?? clearly, that hasn't happened. i always have such good intentions coming home that my time with the Lord is gonna be soo good and i'm gonna spend more time with Him since I have more time, but usually, the opposite happens. it's like the more time i have, the more i don't want to give time to the Lord. i also had a huge realization today.

My backsliding looks different than some others backsliding. My backsliding may not be as evident to the eye. I don't drink or hook up when I backslide. I lie and become prideful. When I'm backsliding, those two things are on the rise. These past two weeks have looked painfully like I'm backsliding specifically in these two areas.

Lord, let me draw close to you. Take away my pride and my lying. Let me give it all to you. Give me that desire for you. Thank you for the way you work in my life even when I choose not to give time to you.

home tomorrow/today!!

expect lots of longer posts for the next week since i'll be chillin' out at home for washington break.. man, i love trimesters :)

isaiah 30

it's good. go read it.. i'll give you summaries as soon as i go home friday.

all of this saying. prayer is good. the bible is good. god is good :)

Compassion

Man. The Lord is good. I still carried that heavy heart with me all day long until tonight when Joan told me not to be too hard on myself. I am human. She is so good to me. I thank the Lord daily for her. She loves me so well. In fact, after I saw her, I was overwhelmingly filled with compassion. Then, I found out later on that she had prayed for compassion for me! This huge weight was lifted and I felt so light. Love how the Lord works. Sometimes I just want to be perfect so badly that I get so frustrated with myself when I'm not. I need to constantly remind myself that I am human and I am going to make mistakes, but that's okay because I serve a God who forgives me of those sins.

Isaiah 28
Summary: sadness to Ephraim and Jerusalem
My Take: Alcohol is not the way to drown your sorrows. This is even the cases wayyy back when. This has not changed that people still tried to use alcohol to drown their problems. And listening to the Lord is so key. We can't learn from God if we're not listening for His voice and His guidance. Listening is just as important and you talking to God in a one sided way.

Lord, thanks for the way you lift heavy burdens from my heart. Thanks for being perfect, so I don't have to!

Needing Jesus

Fun, long day and weekend. From skiing and tubing to playing dodgeball, I had a lot of fun this weekend. It's tonight that the Lord really reminded me in a big way how much I need Him. As I sit here, I sit with a heavy heart. I am so selfish. I'm so impatient. I'm so imperfect. I need God to restore my spirit. I need Him to comfort me when I feel like I'm failing as a Christian. I need Him when I'm failing to love people well at all. I'm succeeding, though, when I give all my failures and shortcomings to Him. So, here you Lord. Here's all my failures. I need you.
Isaiah 27
Summary: Restoring Israel
My take: The Lord can restore anything. Nothing is too far gone to be restored.

Lord, thanks for reminding me how much I need you.

How He Loves Us

"O how He loves us so. O how He loves us. How he loves us so." Chris Tomlin

Every time I meet with Kevin for discipleship, I am challenged to be less prideful. Today, I was telling him that I wish one of my friends realized just how much Our Father loves her, and he asked if I even realized how much the Father loved me. Wow. Definitely took me back a little bit. I feel really loved for sure. I feel like Jesus' love is so satisfying. I love to soak it up. But, still I have so much to learn about how great His love for me is. If I really understood His love for me, I would be sharing it with all my friends. I definitely have a lot to learn about His love for me.
Isaiah 26.. These chapters now are just sooo full of wonderful-ness.. love it.
Summary- singing about how great salvation is now and in the end!
My take- just gonna do a little run down of a few of the verses I particularly love
v. 8: "O Lord, we have waited for You; The desire of our soul is for Your name..." Again, I'm not so good at waiting, but this again assures me that waiting has its rewards. I love the wording of the second part of this. I want that to be my desire every second of the day. That word desire just makes me think it is this deep longing for Christ, and I love that. I have a deep need for Christ.
v. 12b: "For You have also done all our works in us." I feel like the Lord little by little has been showing me the validity of this verse in my life. The only good that comes from me is from Christ because Christ is the only good in the world. All good comes from Christ. I need to constantly reminded of this because many times when I do anything good, my immediate reaction is to think I am just really awesome. I am slowly training myself to remember that God is that one that gave me that and that He is the awesome one for blessing me with awesome things.

Lord, let me continue to be in awe of your love for me. Let your love continue to transform my life and the way I love others. Thanks for loving me perfectly.

Laundry

Soooo.. it finally got down after only 4 1/2 short weeks. I think I may have set a record. My mound was getting sooo huge. Last week, I even ran out of underwear, but instead of doing laundry, I just went and bought more. Yeah, I'm really pathetic. But, you might be, too if doing laundry consisted of lugging it down 3 flights of stairs and then outside. Ironically, I chose the day when it was all snowy and really cold outside. Haha.. Anyways, I had a great day. I continually see the Lord in my everyday life and I love it.

Sooo much goodness in Isaiah 25.. It's just become my favorite chapter in Isaiah so far

Summary- How we will praise God with everything we are and how He will remove all suffering from life in the end

My take-

v.1 "O Lord, You are my God. I will exalt You. I will praise Your name. For You have done wonderful things; Your counsels of old are faithfulness and truth." I love that last line. I read it to mean his promises are faithfulness and truth. He promises us so much, and fulfills it every time. Love that.

v.4 "For You have been a strength to the poor, A strength to the needy in his distress. A refuge from the storm, A shade from the heat." Remind me of my CSM summer. The Lord is the strength of the rich and the poor. He can be there for those that feel like they have nothing else, whether that be they have no food or whether they have no love.

v.8"He will swallow up death forever, And the Lord God will wipe away tears from all the faces."
Probably my favorite verse from this chapter. I would want this to be read at my funeral. Death here on this earth does not determine death for eternity. Amen to that. I love the imagery of the Lord swallowing up death forever. It's especially relevant after all these proclamations against so many countries. The Lord will not only swallow up death forever, but He will have no crying or sadness in heaven either. Soooo good.

v.9 "And it will be said in that day: Behold this is our God; We have waited for Him, and He will save us. This is the Lord; We have waited for Him;We will be glad and rejoice in His salvation."
This verse is so good. It definitely assures me that waiting on God is so worth it! Even right now, I feel like I'm waiting on the Lord to show me where and what I'll be doing next year. I'm playing a big waiting game, but the Lord is still in it. He has my perfect plan. I will wait for Him because He is worth it.
v.11b" And He will bring down their pride." Self-explanatory. While I feel like the Lord has been working on my pride lately, I still have a LONG way to go. It's gonna suck, but also be so good when ultimately the Lord brings my pride to none. It means that I'll fully be rejoicing Him and be in awe of His majesty.

His timing

The Lord answered a long time prayer today. He brought some younger girls to BSU! That, in itself, was a step of boldness. I asked new people to come, and they even liked it! Also, I was motivated and was finished with my homework by about 3 today! And of course, what Tuesday would be complete without a little Zumba session! We did a whole 45 minute one tonight, too and I still loved it.. especially when some pledges came in to work on their lipsync dance.. haha.. we may have turned them into zumba lovers, too! I love how the Lord answers prayer with the perfect timing. We want our timing to be God's timing so many times when really God's is best. We just don't know that at the time.

Isaiah 24
Summary: Everyone in the end will vanish and all will be viewed the same
My take: This life is so short. Live for the Lord because He is for eternity. After this weekend, this makes me feel even more bold about sharing my faith. Who cares if you have to have a really awkward conversation or lose a friend because you share the Gospel? It's the difference between life or death for eternity. This time on earth is sooo short compared to eternity. Sometimes I try to put my brain around that idea and then my brain just starts to hurt. Point is, that's a long time and the human brain shouldn't be able to comprehend it because it's a God sized thing and we are not God.

Lord, thanks for answering my prayers in your perfect timing. Let me have a patient spirit.

I know who I am

"I know who I am. I know who I am. I know who I am. I am Yours. I am Yours."
This song was on repeat in my head all day today after learning it this weekend. I feel like it's my anthem of this year. I feel the most content I think I've ever felt in the Lord. I know who I am and I am His. This weekend I was goofy and crazy and confident at the same time. It was so freeing. I have finally realized that who I am is awesome because God made me this way, so just be me no matter what. It sounds simple, but hard to actually achieve. It's such a great place to be with the Lord because no matter what the circumstance, I can still be joyful and know that I am His.
Isaiah 23-
Summary: Proclamation against Syria and Tyre and how they are gonna fall
My take- v. 11 says, "He stretched out His hand over the sea, He shook the kingdoms." Again, we see the Lord's crazy, awesome power. I think it's definitely a trend here in Isaiah. How crazy is it that the Lord can just shake kingdoms if he wants to? Hey, God. I have a few people I'd like you to shake. Wanna come help me out there? Haha.. I wish.

Lord, thanks for letting my identity be solely in you and not what I do. Thanks for my unexpected interview today and the way you are providing in my life.